Super fat (127.8 lbs!!!), stressed about the apartment (not renting it, renting it, having to clean it up, having to move stuff back to my parents) and going home. I want to cry, I want to go back to bed. But I won't. I'm going to go out. I don't know where yet. Maybe the gym, maybe the beach. Maybe the bakery with the purple malasadas I want to eat. I suck at not eating when I'm stressed out. I suck at moderating my intake of "allergy foods" (ate WAY too much plate lunch yesterday). I suck at being ok with leaving food on my plate, in the fridge, in the pantry. l feel bad I bought more food at Whole Foods last week, and now I feel like I have to eat it or take it home. Why don't I feel ok just leaving it? I don't know....
Ok, off to see the sunshine. I hope it makes me feel better about myself and my life.
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