I'm really angry at my sister right now. She's done nothing for my family since she's been here. She asked me to go to the drug store for her, she drank my sodas I bought for myself and now she's bailing on dinner to go to the spa and didn't even ask if I wanted to go. She's leaving to go home and i bet she wont come back for a while. And when she does she'll say she cant stay in the apartment my dad is paying bank for because of the smell. In the meantime, I'm cleaning it, arguing with the landlord, trying to make it ok. She does nothing except.sleep and try to make us watch videos she likes and gets mad when we don't want to. And then accuses me of bad behavior when I have to excuse myself because I'm too full of emotions to deal with her and my parents. And then I feel selfish if I want to work out or go to the pool. And on top of all this I have a ton of work shit to do that I don't want to do and what I realy need to do is sleep but I can't stand being in the bed in the apartment because of the smell. It's no wonder I'm so fat because all I find solace in is sunsets ( no more.sunrises in the new apt) and food. I want to complain to anyone who can listen but that seems unfair and unkind.
just had a nasty phone call with my sister and she's mad at me and vice versa. I am so poised at her that she is so selfish and just blames it on her illness. And when I try to do the same, I'm just an awful person who needs to get my head out of my ass.
I want our family to like each other. Why can't we?
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