I ate a little too much for breakfast. At two I wasn't really that hungry but I had a smoothie and a bar. Then the bells went off in my head. I'm bad because I ate when I wasn't starving. I wanted peanut butter on the bar but know I shouldn't have it because I've gained weight. While I still do better during the day, when I start eating I just don't want to stop. My pulse started going and my head got consumed with ED voices.
Now I'm dealing with voices telling me I suck because I haven't worked out yet, it's not sunny now, I haven't been swimming in a week, I'm going to be so slow when I get home, etc.
Having an ED sucks BT. I just want to be normal again. Well, thin and without all these voices in my head. I don't really want to have a "normal" body. See, the ED is talking again...
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