I don't get it...

I'm managing ok during the day, but nights have turned into ridiculous binge-fests. Grazing, stuffing myself until I feel sick. When I think about what feelings I'm trying to suppress, I don't really know. I'm not particularly upset about anything. I've had pleasant enough days since I've been back from Hawaii. I'm not really sure why I'm eating in such an out of control way. But I have to get control over it because not only did I gain two pounds in Hawaii (where my eating was clearly about being pissed that I couldn't eat what I wanted to there), I've gained another two since I've been home. Sigh.