free food

as if food weren't hard enough, the free food thing at work causes me angst. There's always yummy looking stuff I can't eat which makes me angry 😠 and then I end up overeating stuff that I feel like its ok to eat (although probably not really). I want to break this cycle.of feeling like I am living in lack and then hoarding food. I'm kind of failing miserably at restraining myself when it comes to volume of food or type of food. Too much ice cream, too much cola... Too much bacon this morning. I dont know what it will take to break this cycle. Small steps? Compassion? It's certainly not the number on the scale (higher than I want) or my clothes fitting (tighter than I want). Things are getting tougher with family and hours are long at work. Food cant be my stress relief. It causes me stress. It is not freeing.