Disappointed

I'm letting eating control me
I'm letting others control me
I'm letting others anger/frustrate/irritate me

I need to sleep more
Worry less
Not obsess so much
Be nicer

I'm tired
lonely
depressed, melancholy

I want to be thin
And successful
And a patient, kind person
Who can control my feelings
And what I put in my mouth

But I'm not that right now
So I'm disappointed in myself

Big time.