Random Thoughts That Are Ear Worms For Me

"People suffer then they are pursuing a life or chasing a dream that's not meant for them."
- Caroline Myss

The great Way is easy, yet people prefer the side path. Be aware when things are out of balance. Stay centered within the Way.:
-Lao Tzu

"It seems to me these days that the easy way is no longer an option for us: it is an imperative. What you are meant to do in the world may have begun with difficulty, but from here on, you are obliged to find the easiest path to all of your objectives. "
-Martha Beck

"Going back to a simpler life is not a backwards step."

"We eat what we eat because we are afraid to feel what we feel."
-Geneen Roth

My life is out of control right now, as manifested by how I eat. I decided to go to OA and I checked almost  every box on their "questions to determine if you have a problem with compulsive eating." And after enjoying the meeting and feeling like it could be a good path for me, I went home and ate a huge dinner, had two (small) glasses of wine and ate two ice cream cones. Oh, and I totally wasted time I should have been working (like I am now) driving to get dinner and driving way out of my way to get ice cream that I didn't even really want all that much. I also thought about getting out of bed at 2:00 a.m. to eat peanut butter and chocolate but didn't only because my body was so tired.

There's a more authentic me (thinner, happier) hiding under the layers of fat I'm putting on my body as I medicate myself with food. Even right now as I type the voices in my head are arguing about whether I should be eating something. I'm tired, stressed, depressed and want to hide from everyone and everything. But I have to keep soldering on...

I hope things get easier. I hope I can back to being me.