The day had its ups and downs and I wish I could report that it ended on an up note, but it didn't.
I'm frustrated with myself. I'm irritated that I keep falling in the same holes. I wonder when I'll finally stop putting my body and mind through the same loop over and over and over again.
Food isn't the answer. Eating more of what I don't want doesn't make it what I do want. Eating because I'm mad at someone else just punishes me. Eating because I feel unfulfilled doesn't fill up my soul.
I'm tired and I just want the world to stop sometimes. I want to take a break. But, I keep going because if I don't I'll just get more stuck.
I have faith that I'll stop doing this to myself someday, that I'll figure out how to stop using food as a drug, a coping mechanism and the fallback to any special event. I just don't want to look like whale by the time I do.
Highs for today:
- I found out that a good friend is going to be at Mobile World Congress - yay!
- I didn't lollygag after my doctor's appointment
- The sun came out :)
It was good to hear about your friend being at MWC. Good timing for an old friend. :)
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