Super depressed this morning. I just want to go back to bed, but I can't. I have meetings all day long. A list of "To Dos" as long as my arm. An impending international trip that I'm trying to prepare for.
I'm sad that I screwed up again. I'm really sad that my natural inclination is to eat even more today. Probably to smother my feelings. I hate the way I feel right now, physically and mentally.
I'm trying to figure out how to brighten my mood. I can't listen to music because I have to be on calls or in meetings. I can't deal with other people's energies right now. I can't surf the internet for cute animals because I'm supposed to be paying attention during my meetings.
I need alternate coping strategies but the ones that have been offered to me don't seem to help. I'm hoping that doing this blog might help. Perhaps I need to get a cat - if only I could take it to work.
I don't know how I'm going to manage to keep it together the next few weeks...
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