"You can sleep when you're dead"

When will I learn? Listen to the signs? Heed my inner voice?


I posted this to my FB tonight:
I wonder how much longer I can swing this getting 4-5 hours of sleep a night thing before I turn into a big pile of goo...


Then I got a Dr. Weil article in Hotmail with "4 Ways to Take Control of My Life":

1. If you find that the demands on your time are overwhelming, don't be afraid to politely say "no" when someone asks you to do something.
2. Don't feel guilty. No one person can do it all, so learn your limits and be satisfied with them.
3. Be a little selfish once in a while by scheduling "me time" - it will help keep you grounded and in touch with your thoughts and feelings.
4. Take time to enjoy the little things. Read a book, start an art project, work in the garden or treat yourself to a massage.

Of course, I find myself rebutting the list:


1. Hard to say "no" to the boss who just got a HUGE promotion, is sleeping 3 hours a night, and still manages to answer every email, be fresh in meetings, and have a smile on his face.


2. See #1.


3. I'm trying, but with parents in town, personal obligations and just doing the stuff of life... um, NO.


4. Maybe I can do a little bit of that this weekend. I hope.


I feel gross because I'm so sleep deprived. When you're sleep deprived you gain weight. Being sleep deprived is bad for you. So why can't I just say "no" and go back to a life of normal sleep, normal eating and normal me?


Well, at least for the last few days I haven't been eating everything in sight. Only some things. Of course, my stomach and guts feel terrible most of the time, so maybe that's why.


Highs:
-good feedback from my boss on a document I wrote
-listening to Pharrell Williams songs


Now that I've written this, I'm going to get less than 4 hours of sleep. Oy.