Not Afraid

I did it. I told my manager that the job wasn't playing to my strengths, that it didn't feel like a fit, that I thought I might want...need... to do something else. And he was totally supportive. In a way that made me feel valued as an employee and a person.


I have to think about what to do next, but the door has been opened. I feel like a weight has been lifted.


Phew...I took a chance and it went just fine. The funny thing is I look back at my career and the times I took chances like this, showed my true self, it has seemed to pay off.


Of course, the gremlin is on my shoulder:  why would I give up my manager because he is just that good at being respectful and helpful... why punt the opportunity before me which is huge and wide open...why wouldn't I want to say I work directly for the Chief Marketing Officer of a Fortune 500 company? ?But I know that it hasn't made me happy and probably won't get any better as the org gets bigger, the problems get more complex, and the scrutiny gets that much more laser-focused.


So I have to brush the gremlin off my shoulder.  And I have to be courageous and take the next step. And the next and the next and the next...


My theme song today:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5-yKhDd64s


And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, I'ma face my demons
I'm manning up, I'ma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now!