Today was the first day of the 2nd round of the Sneakers challenge which helped me to lost 15 pounds. Now that I've put 10 of those back on in the last two weeks from binge eating every night, I was hoping that the kick off would get me back on track.
It didn't.
I got through dinner within my calorie limit for the day but then proceeded to binge 1500 more calories into my mouth.
And other than being frustrated with my mom, I had no real reason to eat. And every reason to go to bed since I've been sleeping like crap and have a long swim race tomorrow.
Bur I guess looking back at today, I was depressed because the weather sucked and my sister didn't come today. Plus I thought about how I don't want to go home but I don't want to stay here with my mom because it makes me sad and mad to deal with her. And I was going to start IOP at Ai Pono but they are putting it off and then what's the point because I have to go home. Furthermore I am taunted by the women in my other challenge who are all skinny and ripped and love to post pictures of themselves in their underwear.
Two weeks ago I was proud of myself, my body.... I was looking forward to getting more fit, ripped and ready for the Dawg Dash. What happened?
I need help but I don't know that is.
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